im back.
cos im feeling bad.

can someone please help me to understand this :

to someone you love,
do you need the person or want the person?

it cant be both. but if u choose either, it doesnt make sense too.

if you need someone, it makes you desperate, scary and possessive.
if you want someone, its like getting that person to belong to you, thats it, period.

so. when someone pops you this question, how would you answer?

stop it. it hurts.
just fucking stop it.

i'm devastated. seriously.

life just suck. seriously.
ive been trapped at home for more than a week because of contact w swine-d pp.
fuck.

i need to buy stuffs. badly.
birks. chukka boots (maybe). leather watch and many more bottoms n tops.
nabei.
i want to binge too.

suck it.

love you, but not in love with you.
i guess thats the case.
forget it.

i've just got myself a cool good new cheap webcam!
=)=)=)
but very disappointed cos i cldnt find any cheap armchairs around.

okays.
imma stop spending. saving time!

cool.
payday's here.
now that ive got some cash with me, i need to do some therapy.
booyah.
lots of stuffs to buy.
and i still cant forgot the shoe i saw at leftfoot.
its just cute. haha!
alright! i know what shall be my bday wishlist, a shoe.
hell yeah.

so.
recently.
ive been running into poor service abassadors.
its really irritating.
one woman from breadtalk,
another from heavenloft @ orchard central.
real bitches.
whats up with the gems in sg!
nonsense.
but still there are nice pp.
the one at ex-collage shop at cine and the one at waraku whos got a photographic memory.
i will never forget the best service received at lsphilisophy.
but maybe thats cause i paid for quite a high price.
hmm.
maybe i shld consider being a part time service auditor. =)

alrights.
hows life?
sucks. definitely.
i dunno. i just need a getaway. alone.
someone help me. pleaseee!

p.s. i don wan to go smu!

FUCKSHIT.
welcome to the fuckshit life.

life's mundane.

nus really sucks. wtf.
my appeal application's rejected.
kns.
i wanna go down to bang table.

anyhows,
ive bought a digicam.
its a joint venture w bella.
a red hawt sexay canon ixus 100is

also,
ive finished the whole of e twilight series.
"forever and forever and forever". the end.
and so, that marks the end of my edward impersonation.

i hate my pimpley face.
argh.

i hate camp.
argh.

i hate having no money.
argh.

life just suck.
really.

a p p e a l i n g t i m e . . .

so its over.
the Queen's Gala is over.
thats my main event of the year.
and its over.

hope the Queen's happy.
all other nitty gritty details aint important,
if you know whats love for someone you love.

time to work on my fitness.
ippt in 2weeks time.
one chance to pass.
no chance to fail.
cfc here i come.
more money to earn.
HELL YEAH!!!

i just feel like going for a holiday again.
should i?
should i not?
i should not because im running low on cash.
i should because i need the holiday.
argh.

getting sick and tired of camp.

time to source for cash before embarking on a spending spree!

im so gonna plan for my birthday soon.
august it shall be.
blast it will be.
look out for the invitation. =P

goodiebyes!

If you want to fight I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces

hell yeah!
ive bought new shoes! watched 17 again!
hell yeah!

all bout love,
(ranked in accordance to importance; 1 e lowest, 10 e highest)

words of affirmation - 10
quality time - 4
gifts - 6
acts of service - 1
physical touch - 7

WHOOSH!

Back from msia!
its...hell...lot of fun!
the cosmo, the shopping, the food.
and most imptly the company.
ze 4 sinkapore heavenly king!

all the bargaining, the massage, the teksi rides, the indoor theme park, the food,
is just so perfect.
even if the hotel is so horrible, its still as fun.

all bout the trip is on facebook!

i want to go overseas, AGAIN!
lets make it a deal.
at least once a year.
hell yeah!

alrights. so now i proclaimed im broke!
spend n spend n spend like free lidat.
atm here n there.
but like wad my dad say, go holiday cannot save one. must spend then considered as holiday.
hell yeah!

hmm. so, back to work.
collected new uniform.
and have to wear it latest by sunday.
its jus so freaking ugly n uncomfortable.

anw. i really think i walked too much n too fast in msia.
my two big toes are numb.
shitman.
but ok la, old condition.
hope it gets well soon! cos its super uncomfortable.

this weekend council bday celebration.
next weekend special day.
next next weekend parents anniversary n dad bday celebration.
hell yeah!
money no more!
hell yeah!

the heart never lies, i love.